I’ve been trying to find a way to say how I feel about you.

I don’t know if it should be this hard, or maybe I’m just overthinking as per usual.

It’s like I’m suffocating when you aren’t here, but instead of running to you to ease the pain, I find myself ignoring your messages.

I miss you so much that you terrify me.

I’m so scared of losing myself in your soul that I can’t help but tuck myself away in my mind and stomp on the feelings that are beginning to grow like weeds in my heart.

And with all of my
fighting,
struggling,
stubbornness
and stupidity

You are still here.

And I am so grateful
and so willing
and so happy
to love you.

I guess it’s just that simple.