*my heart hurt
with every laugh
every scarring word
engraved and pierced into
my ego
just a child
forced into silence
by your contempt
and obsession with self
and pity
who was i to love
when my reflection
only revealed the very
person you saw in me
and despised
your opposite
enveloped in silence
that caused you rage
depression, selfishness
and hate
you ask me for kindness
to appreciate you
and what you do
and have done
for me
you say that it seems
like i don't respect you
but i am silent as always
yet in my mind
i assent
for who could
acknowledge
you whom couldn't
cry for anyone
but herself
and how could i
respect you when i still
haven't found myself or anyone
to love me in place
of you*