The sunrises with powerful myth. The sky lights up as it was on fire with reds the camera can't collect. The shopping centers still all a jam. When all I wanted was to buy some jam. People pushing rushing like it's the end of life. Of my God there's only one more Barbie let's get into a fight. Yesterday I begged for food. With others that have no one, no where to be for this crappie holiday you see. Jobs were cut. Just in the nick of time. As disaster seems to cloud this world of mine. If I was an immigrant even better to be illegal. I'd probably have a ******* pillow. Excuses from the social worker, about vacations and not enough people to help those of us. Here we sit 2 days before Christmas. No tree in the house and not a single gift. Ranch dressing is what's left in the frig. I paid my power bill so I could be warm. I guess that's now a choice to be hungry or warm. This life we have is really about feeling abused and worn. Christmas can come and be gone for all I'm concerned. There is no longer the love during the holidays. Even the churches have gone a stray. I'll give you this loaf of bread but you must stay here and let us get inside your head. I'm hungry, don't need a sermon . I've heard them all being raised conservative almost worst than a mormon. I've prayed for changes no one answers my prayers. This time I'm giving up. And I no longer care. Merry Christmas to all you that have everything. ***** those of us that have lost everything.