And everyone believed in her Oblivious to her nightly tears She could never see their girl Blinded by her faults and fears
So she wished upon a broken star That shattered every one of her dreams Burdened with the screaming scars Tonight she murdered her self-esteem
Learned not to see the light Consumed by the vicious lies So she surrendered to the fight Yet again she tries and tries
Learned to laugh through her pain For she was so sick of crying Now she revelled in the rain It washed away her doubts for dying
To the heavens and the skies I’m sorry for another broken star Its magic was just another lie Hope, cruelly snatched from afar
To the soul that paid the heavy price I’m sorry for this crafting mutation But night after night, it would never suffice You must’ve understood the satisfaction
To the victim trapped under water I’m sorry for drowning you in its depths In a ruthless slaughter: but I loathed her Please forgive me before our last breath
To the readers of this pitied story I bid you all one final warning
Don’t be deceived by their lies and our goodness For I was never the blessed, intelligent girl And don’t be blinded by your own loveliness For I’m not that beautiful, sweet, caring girl
And I’m not the girl you and I wanted from me But she is the girl I have tried to be And I am through wearing this mask of deception For you believe it all, but not its selfish intentions
Please help me…I pray to god for you to help me But for the sake of your loveliness, your compassion and all that you conserve Don’t: you are best to let me be For I am getting all I deserve
This poem was a recent one and very, very personal. But it really did feel like a big weight was lifted when I wrote it, so it isn't one of my best works, but it really helped me. I guess that's why I like this one.