Did you mean what you said
Or was it a blurry, drunk moment?
Am I paranoid,
Or was something left unspoken?
Because I pictured a husband
And daughters and sons
Much too fast for my mind to grab hold of.
Successful,
Hell even college educated,
I wasn't there for your future though
I stuck through it for ours.
You told me your feelings
And I stuck through that too
I stuck through it for me
And for you.
My anxiety has spiked
But you're not heir to my problems
And least that much I'd decided
Because you havent been depressed a day in your life
And boy I've never seen that.
Why does my heartbeat
Sound more like a scream
Why are my lungs collapsing on me?
What are you doing in my sudden time of need?
Boy,
What the **** are you doing to me?