It’s the damndest thing when attentions focused on one thing beget the focus of another Like the rooster crowing the sunlight in the cold, ungrateful weather, My eyes scan the ups and downs of those digital stand-ins for those I’ve known Seeing mistakes, my own and in others, Seeing perfection, in other’s imperfect successes, wantonly rubbed in my eyes
As I springboard from the travails of those with whom I may never vocalize my adoration I drop out of the air of a life far from mine, I see mention of a passed on spirit Who I truly adored, no digital fakery of half-true fables necessary to express my love for the ideals implanted in me by such a tongue so supplicant to the truths in that vast ether where I used to swim in the light, never thinking of the dark climes below. What choice do I have on an accidental evening like tonight? I no longer can mask disinterest for other’s soaring narratives when my true care has been discovered, been pried away from that dark corner of the airborne pool so ethereal.
My care, my pride have been torn asunder, by a mere errant glance on a mere sideways mention Of a massive, earthly idol, who, if only for a stanza of years held my full gaze with hopeful smiles and ecstatic promise for bright futures now gone into grey pastures.
I lay here an imposter in authentic skin if only for the sight of words on screens, with scant meaning in between.