I was going to write a poem about you
And and about how I know
That you need to go
But I don't want you to leave
But I only got two lines in
I couldn't write anymore
I couldn't think about the future without you
I didn't want it to be so soon
There's only a few months left
At least that I know that I'll get to see you
You made a promise
To stay for my birthday
But what then?
Will you leave the next day?
I can't imagine going through it all over again
Not knowing if I'll ever see you again
Not being able to feel safe in your arms
I don't know if I ever told you that before
That in your arms, I just feel safe
I want to spend every second with you before you go
But that would probably just make it harder when you leave
I don't want to imagine that day
When we say our goodbyes
Maybe to never see each other again
I don't think I'll ever meet anyone like you
No one will ever be able to replace you
I'll probably write letters that will never get sent
And reread old ones from you to me
I'll probably cry myself to sleep for awhile
Probably won't eat and won't speak
I'll get over it eventually
But then something will remind me of you
And I'll break down
I'll recover and go on again
But I'll be empty for a while
Without you to talk to
I don't know what I'll do
I'll probably send you a message
And wait for your reply
Just to remember that you aren't there
That you are somewhere off traveling
Living life and seeing the world
And I'm still here
I don't want you leave
But I know you have to go
I guess I ended up writing that poem after all