I woke up this morning
Only to be able to tell my friends that
I’m okay

I ate today
Only to show everyone that
I’m not trying to lose weight

I did my homework this evening
Only to show my parents that
I’m fine

I laughed at dinner
Only to say that
I can make it

I tried to sleep
But I couldn’t
That’s the one thing that I couldn’t fake

I don’t know how to fake it
I can’t fake it

Everytime I look at the couch
I think
“You should be here”

Everytime I get in the car
I almost start to cry
Thinking how you died

Today I found out about your death
I didn’t cry
Only because I didn’t want to show any weakness

Today I went to your funeral
I didn’t see you
Or anyone that I knew
I saw my mother
Not for long though
As I left the home,
I caught a sight of you
Saying,
“You’ll be fine dear. Trust me.”

Today I cried
But only to show that to be strong
You have to show your weakness