Your time on earth filled with religious sacrifice. You didn't curse, swore to serve heaven by spending Sunday mornings at a pew, while the world recovered from Satan's Saturday night.
You've been with the same women, that lost that spark so very long ago. Satisfactory health, breakfast, lunch, dinner, little league, bible camp, suicide...
Confession. "Those thoughts aren't allowed" ...maybe life isn't so bad. But I heard the sinners have more fun? I'll live longer blessed, while they die young. I'll continue in safety hoping heaven isn't a lie with no vacancy sign.