I didn't know you weren't happy here
With that bright smile who could've guessed?
Days would pass
And your soul would grow weaker
If only...
I knew your everyday was a struggle
You hid it well
Something I have grown to be very good at.
But what about me?
What about mom?
What about all the ones who worked so hard to make you happy?
You thought you were helping by taking your life
But you made it worse for the world...
Worse for me when I didn't think I could feel any worse.
You made it possible.
I left to be with people who I know hated me,
Thinking it would make me worthless to the ones who love me
I did drugs to find some way to have comfort in your death,
But found none.
Each time I did them I knew I was a little closer to you,
But for some reason I just can't die.
I always return feeling a little less fixable.
I want my dreams to come true,
But why dream if I never intend to follow them?
I know it's gonna take some time for me to want to live and enjoy life,
And although you had the short and easy road,
Mines going to be a long journey home.