I wake up in the morning
Pain already raging through my veins
Wanting almost killing me
Everything in my body begging me
Pick it up
Cold and shiny
It sits heavy in my palm
The edge glints as the morning sun hits it
My muscles contract
The pain becomes to great
Tears start streeming from my eyes
No one is around to stop me
To hold me tight and take it from me
No one is around to save me from myself
I have made a promise to try and stop
To try is what i promised because i knew i couldnt keep it
I knew i would fall and fall again
Cuz i never have anyone here to catch me
Its easy though to blame other people
To throw the hurt outside myself
And toss it on to other people
I close my eyes
Try to clear my mind
It doesnt work
All i hear is the words
Words that were thrown
Carelessly
Sticking where they land