I would say I’m sorry for being MIA but what’s the point?
We both know this isn’t the last time I’ll disappear and then reappear with some pathetic excuse.
I guess the only difference is that by this point your used to it.
So much so that our relationship continuously remains in this fractured state where neither us know how to heal it.
The alternative is to remove what’s broken but neither of us care enough anymore to do so.
It’s ironic that I’m lonely when your out their trying to make contact.
The thing is though every time we communicate something happens and I’m left feeling more alone.
I wish I could be honest or that you were a mind reader but your not and I’m just a coward.
So we are left in are current cycle of connecting which leaves me feeling lonely so I go MIA.
Only I always return because the truth is no matter how alone I feel I am so desperate for human connection.
So I’ll reach out hoping it will be different but knowing I’ll eventually end up alone in the dark for days on end.
I think the strangest thing is that I’m slowly starting to accept that this is my life now.