In some light you were grey. The mellow cast wrecks what I've forgiven. I loved you, I love you. There are no birds, no half- mouthed cliches, how? I've died and I've died without hatred, apathy.
In the morning I kissed your cheeks and I loved you, I love you. I open my hands and there is only air. I've swallowed my own yellow, my own bouquet of mental ******* dressed all in pillowcases grey wishing you'd lay over me, skin over skin and whisper I love you, I love you into the shallow curves of my neck and ears.