this feeling
overwhelming me
like a compulsion
it's so very random
sometimes a moment
sometimes for hours
I wonder if it's a part of me
or controlling me
sometimes I drop everything
ignore friends texts and calls
its like no other feeling
a high I can't buy anywhere
I can't even try to control it
sometimes it leaves for weeks
just to hit me for a minute
this feeling is like no other
when my words turn into something
that's just for me and no one else
if its a new love
or my heart smeared on paper
when I was so low I saw no up
it reached out for me
and it didn't pull me up
but showed me how to pull myself up
It showed me I can feel without falling
and I feel stronger just knowing i have it
like a hidden diary
with it I can breathe again
and no one can take it from me