My heart yearns for your sadistic, egotistical mind
Every day you say you love me and every night you leave me alone to cry once more over that sick fetish you have of watching me fall apart
And yet the morning comes and once more I'll rise for you
I'll live for you, I'll die for you
My lungs breathe for you, my heart beats for you
You make my blood boil and my hands shake
You say jump, I say how high
You say leave, I say I'm sorry.


And I don't deserve this
I deserve someone to love me
to show me what it's like to be cared about
I deserve to not sit here writing on my tear-stained laptop about how you've ruined everything that I once had and everything that I once was
You've taken over who I am and created a mindless creature
I am not myself, I have lost myself
because of you
You are the most toxic being I have ever encountered
And finally,

**I will get out