Dec 2017
Can I run away
Again
Seems to work in my favor
Now and then
Like the universe comes in
After trouble begins
And prevents me from falling to pieces
If I stayed
But it used to be
It wasn't by choice
By force to keep me moving
When I would much rather stay to feel what came with the pain of a situation
Sometimes
But I always left when a connection was forming
Just another month or two
The bonds would be inseparable
But I'll never know now
Should never look back
They say what's meant for you will return
So I guess none of that was meant for me
I don't want to run away
I'll keep moving
Until something gives me a reason to stay
But even I had to leave that place which sang to my heart
The only one I've ever cried about
Tears have been shed for any person I have lost
Maybe faded from my memory
No never that
Maybe I've faded from them
Because anyone can come to my mind and the communication could have ended when we were 10
If you're wondering why the thought of me keeps you up at night
I'll only apologize for my actions because I'm the one doing the thinking
That's only if we have a connection so strong that it's a possibility
Or maybe that's me imagining what I wish could be
Thinking about you only, only you
There's comfort there
But once you've mastered solitude
You wonder, I've wondered, is that all there is?
Solitude was a retreat for me to find myself in the midst of chaos that caked my mind
Looking for myself in others I tried
But the more that left and I could not rely on
I began looking at me
I've always been one to look in the mirror
But beyond the mirage we paint for ourselves or sculpt into the say of others
That's not only you
And I've seen me
Enough that the outside cannot shake the love filled within me, that self-love, unconditional love
But what is it, if you can't share that with others
It's something
But can be more
It's everything
But can be more
So yeah, I'll say, I'll run away
I'll run towards the bonds that are already set in place for me, because I choose to envision it
I'll run towards the connections that will surprise me because the uncontrollable flow of life is all I know
It's about me, but not only about me
There's a world out there I can run to every which way and I want to get lost and I want to have a plan too
And I'll run towards every new place and human on this one way path
Cause there's bound to be a bond found somewhere
Somewhere
Again
Seems to work in my favor
Now and then
Like the universe comes in
After trouble begins
And prevents me from falling to pieces
If I stayed
But it used to be
It wasn't by choice
By force to keep me moving
When I would much rather stay to feel what came with the pain of a situation
Sometimes
But I always left when a connection was forming
Just another month or two
The bonds would be inseparable
But I'll never know now
Should never look back
They say what's meant for you will return
So I guess none of that was meant for me
I don't want to run away
I'll keep moving
Until something gives me a reason to stay
But even I had to leave that place which sang to my heart
The only one I've ever cried about
Tears have been shed for any person I have lost
Maybe faded from my memory
No never that
Maybe I've faded from them
Because anyone can come to my mind and the communication could have ended when we were 10
If you're wondering why the thought of me keeps you up at night
I'll only apologize for my actions because I'm the one doing the thinking
That's only if we have a connection so strong that it's a possibility
Or maybe that's me imagining what I wish could be
Thinking about you only, only you
There's comfort there
But once you've mastered solitude
You wonder, I've wondered, is that all there is?
Solitude was a retreat for me to find myself in the midst of chaos that caked my mind
Looking for myself in others I tried
But the more that left and I could not rely on
I began looking at me
I've always been one to look in the mirror
But beyond the mirage we paint for ourselves or sculpt into the say of others
That's not only you
And I've seen me
Enough that the outside cannot shake the love filled within me, that self-love, unconditional love
But what is it, if you can't share that with others
It's something
But can be more
It's everything
But can be more
So yeah, I'll say, I'll run away
I'll run towards the bonds that are already set in place for me, because I choose to envision it
I'll run towards the connections that will surprise me because the uncontrollable flow of life is all I know
It's about me, but not only about me
There's a world out there I can run to every which way and I want to get lost and I want to have a plan too
And I'll run towards every new place and human on this one way path
Cause there's bound to be a bond found somewhere
Somewhere
