By day and through night My brothers and sisters waited for him. I never knew he was gone.
In a house heavy with history forgotten, Save a few precious moments, hoarded, That barely made up for an hour but at least they were mine.
I found myself last night, With all that I'd lost, Cowering in a corner.
The reasons, submerged beneath a thick, black muck of subconscious Thought, I would just as soon not know. I tried so hard to shove forgiveness down his throat when it was too late and he didn't need it.
There we were, wide-eyed and grateful, Locked in each other's arms, As if he had never been gone.
By now I knew The newness of his heartbeat... The novelty of breathing...
It was then I saw. It was then I felt His body held tightly in my grip, no longer frail.
I felt his warmth. The heat, an aura of life, Brushed against my chest and I grasped the body all the more firmly.
We shared the same air for a moment. Selfishly stealing it into our lungs, I was so frightened of exhaling.
He'd conquered that monster A long time ago, But he held me all the tighter.
I felt the pressure of his embrace... We must have stood there for hours... Or a few precious moments, hoarded.
I don't remember him ever leaving. We stood like statues in that haunted house Until the rain of nothingness soaked us to the bone.
I don't remember him leaving. We merged into ghosts and floated together Until the wind of forgetfulness finally blew us to other shores.
I don't remember him leaving We dissolved into baptismal waters meant for saints Until the Sun scorched us dry.