impatient girl can’t grow her dumb flower

i’ll plant them in my garden
and i will watch them grow
and as they start to blossom
i’ll have them overflow
they’ll drown and die from water
and i start to begin
replacing all the flowers
that’s how its always been
i never like their pigment
its never the right shade
i’ll tear them from the soil
until my flesh will fade
and never see their beauty
i’ll never let them grow
because i tear the soil
before true colors show