like ribbed-knit fabric, when we put the old ribbed La-Z-Boy out front, "FREE", and whoever picked it up has no idea my grandfather died in that chair. like holding my knees in the hot tub, quiet, wet, baking tiles, a certain safety in a room with only women, and crouching in the water like a boiling dumpling. shortbread cookies in bed. mac DeMarco on the way to the doctor's office, my love for you is so real, separating from my body in a goodwill, curly-haired boys and impossibly beautiful girls in the movie theater bathroom, whipped cream on her nose, the golden lights of applebee's, and then like it's all over again.