Desperate for the profound. The deep and intense. Revelation. On the verge of breakthrough. Its in my bones. Not accustomed to the feeling, Yet I welcome it. Savour it. It drives me. Beyond insanity. To a world of faith. And hope. I hope. I hope in resurrection. I breathe. Because I have died. Sometimes still. And I hope. I long. For the deepest part of me to be satisfied. Desperate. Yet hoping.