Ever worry that, in your blood there are antibodies to make you nauseous towards every.single.person.you.get.close.to? That we are peering - naked, wet, shivering - into an unfathomable loneliness, balancing on our toes, inching, with our mistakes, ever closer to the most personal, most frightening, most loathsome loss we will ever experience? That you will never reveal yourself Never be vulnerable Never be loved or love the one person with the right size-of-wrench to fix you?
Your infernal heat, to guard against probing hands, will scatter any hope that the right hands might intrude, and you will die inside, trembling, small, at the thought you will REMAIN ALONE FOREVER.
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And then, grin, and pause, and they walk away from the unthinkable phrase that describes... All our bad or separate moments.