“Never tell a lie.”

They say

But, oh how they are wrong



“Never commit a crime.”

They say

But is being alone a crime?



Contemplating whether to say home

Or take a hold of my life?

Can you be all by yourself?

And win a medal for mind games?



“Get up, get up, get up.”

I tell myself

But how can I?

When my legs are broken?



“Go to sleep and find your dreams.”

Your mother says

But what if

My dream is to stay awake forever?



Winter is colder than summer

But is it more carefree?



I can’t help but wonder

What’s it’s like to lock my doors

How can I when my insides are frozen?



“They care about you.”

My heart says

But how I can tell

How much time has passed when all

My clocks are broken?



“Hide all your fears.”

My mind tells me

Oh, if only you knew

That my fear is you



**** your friend

And you’re a murderer

**** yourself

And you become a coward



They all need me now

And I can’t stand up

Because my mind is crying

Out for help



I need them all now

So I can find life

In my darker deaths