You are not a peace coming midst chaos and despair, You are rare, and if there quickly disappear. You are the fear of the fear, immemorial and earthreal impossible to feel between the tides of insecurity the shipwrecked nativity turned to the ashes of cynicism And yet I lust for the echoes of those ashes, But you are not in crashes of lips or slips of Aphrodite tongue, You are an aria not to be sung, poem not crafted to write, You shed no light on what I ache to know Yet, I think, I would die if you should go.