You cut me open
And laughed as my heart stopped beating
You hurt me in every way possible
Controlled me in every way possible

I was only fourteen when I met you
You took advantage of my inexperience
Every time I see someone who looks like you
I stop in my tracks
And run away

Even after five years
I’m still afraid
Panicking at the thought of you

When I stopped breathing
Did you panic?
You choked me so hard
Clusters of violet spots
Under my eyes for days
Reminding me of the violence that took place

How many times did you **** me?
I’ve lost count
You ravaged my body, soul, and mind
The reason I laid in bed for days
Hoping a black hole would swallow me

I wonder about you
Almost every day
Did you get help?
Is there someone else?
A young inexperienced girl
With her whole life ahead of her?
Have you ruined her
Like you ruined me?