I AM NOT HERE TO MAKE YOU FEEL SUPPORTED OR COMFORTED OR AT EASE I AM HERE TO TELL YOU HOW I FEEL

AND I FEEL LIKE I ONLY MATTER WHEN YOU GET BORED OF LIVING THE SAME DAY ON REPEAT.
I ONLY EXIST TO YOU WHEN THE COLORS ALL LOOK THE SAME AND YOU WANT TO FEEL EXOTIC OR STOP LIVING YOUR OWN LIFE FOR AWHILE

I AM ONLY AROUND TO YOU IF YOU WANT TO PARTY OR NEED SOMEWHERE TO GET REALLY DRUNK.

I AM MORE THAN THESE WINDOW PANES AND THIS RENT CHECK AND THE MAILBOX SITTING OUTSIDE MY HOUSE WAITING FOR SOMEBODY TO GIVE A ****. I AM MORE THAN THESE WALLS AND THE SCRIBBLES WE VANDALIZED ONTO THEIR SURFACE.
I DON’T WANT TO BE YOUR VACATION OR YOUR GETAWAY, I WANT TO BE YOUR EARLY MORNING COFFEE AND YOUR SIX O CLOCK NEWS. I WANT TO BE A STEADY SURFACE IN YOUR SCHEDULE, BUT ALL I SEEM TO BE TO YOU IS A LAST RESORT.
I AM HERE AND I AM NOW AND I AM WHATS TANGLED IN YOUR HAIR, I AM WHATS CAUGHT UNDER YOUR FINGERNAILS, I AM THE LAST SHAKY BREATH YOU TAKE BEFORE YOU GO INTO CARDIAC ARREST. SO I AM SORRY THAT I AM LOUD AND OVER THE TOP AND THAT I ALMOST ALWAYS CROSS THE LINE BUT YOUR ANNOYANCE IS ONLY CAUSED BY MY PASSION AND I DON’T KNOW WHY YOU THINK IT’S OKAY TO KEEP MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I’M NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
I SPENT TOO LONG BEING OKAY WITH JUST BEING BORDERLINE.