When everything is gone true colors are shown, bright blue skys are now covered with dark gray clouds negativity surrounds me loved ones no longer believe in me a heart filled with joy is now an empty abyss allowing no one in allowing no one near forgiveness is no option sympathy is no longer welcome I ******* hate this place I'm in my mind and my heart are at war with reality the reality is how can I be good enough for you when I'm not good enough for me how can I be good enough for anyone when I'm not good enough for them, how could you not be good enough for the ones who conceived you how the **** can they not believe in you