This picture of you
Under the blanket making no noise and pretending I don’t exist
This picture of you
Drawn on my wrist

Now it feels like you’re the one holding the blade
Drawing the same picture
I told her I'm addicted, confessed everything
With a painful throat, she asked me to grab her

Breaking windows, getting naked
Begging for more
Where the dreamers go
I just wanted to prove everybody wrong

Let me be
I begged, down on my knees
I only need time, not a home
Time is where the heart is, to cure my hope syndrome

If home is where the heart is
Then what do I do with this hollow chest
Happy pills?
Look me in the eye and ask for it

Hold your head high gorgeous and look at mine
I’ll **** to see you smiling
She told me that it’s too hard to talk when you want to **** yourself
Non mental complaints but a physical issue

Physically opening her mouth and making the words come out
Smooth and in conjunction
Not everybody understands this but if you do
I’m sorry, but who does?

A different kind of art
It felt cold for a while
But the sun's rising everyday to keep us safe
Teaching us everyday how to behave

"It’s okay I understand" I interrupted her madness
With that I was introducing mine
It’s my only release from pain
That's all my sanity needed to sustain

The voices in my head are back
She knew them all
When I saw her lying on my bedroom floor
With mascara crawling down her face

Gasping for air, with the moon-rise
Gasping for darkness
I brought her back to life
Cleaning the blood

Razor..Blade..Scissors
For her magical game, we were wizards
Over and over again, drained-
Every though from the stars we gained

"It’s the treasure you’ve been always looking for
Please keep in mind that you will find the pain release and blood strangely addictive
Control it"

Never.will

"Stick to a few small
Shallow cuts here and there that won’t be deep that will heal
Begin to fade
Depend on it
Itches and burns
Spread slowly but steadily
She took a deep breath after letting all that out"

She was there in the deepest times of my life reminding me that everything was going to be like blood
She was the one who gave me the strength to keep wanting to survive
She was the only one who hadn’t given up on me even when I had given up on myself
She saved me and I could never thank her enough

Tempting..