I like to say I’m a trustworthy person
But I myself know that’s a lie
I’ve used people
I’ve lied to people
I’ve hurt people
I don’t want to be that way anymore..
It just seems to creep back into my life
I never know if I’m using someone
Or if I’m trying to establish something
I used to say I’m a confident person
But I don’t feel that way
I can’t seem to come to turns with what I feel
Because I know that it won’t lead anywhere
But she has me writing
So it’s gotten me somewhere..
Now I just drink the pain away
Because my mind goes to the worst
Saying she’s doing things I wish she wouldn’t
It hurts
I start breaking down from the thought
So I use the alocohol to build the lies
I’ve constantly wanted to confess
But it leads me to a dead end anyway
So why not stand just stand at the fork in the road
My left being confessing
My right being giving up
I don’t want to give up
But I don’t want to confess
Don’t trust me...
I want you to stay safe
But I think you should stay safe from me...