These clouds linger
Like the thoughts storming through your head,
And it is here that I wonder,
If I am already dead
To you who I layed my soul down
To you who picked it up,
Deemed unworthy
I find myself unable to settle
For another who accepts the pieces you rejected
For another who can fit within the confines of my mind,
You left a hole
In the shape of you
And I wear that scar on my skin like a prideless reminder of my arrogance
For falling in love with an angel
Because who am I,
But a simple man with simple wants and nothing more
You who has taken the world by storm
Me who has been capsized by its raging seas
You who held me as I cried
And then proceeded to leave
And I was foolish enough to believe that I knew everything
At least about this one thing
That you and I were destined for something greater then anything I had ever dreamed,
That your high rise state of mind would ballance out my desire to settle,
I would love with a ferocity I had never shown in anything
I would hold one truth apparent above all others that life would be lived not as one but two,
And I had the ring to prove it,
I guess we'll never know which knee to bend down first
Because life isn't always fair and it isn't everyone who cares,
And I wish I had the depth of character and the state of mind to climb outside of the walls my mind has hid behind,
It's a terrifying place to be at this time of night.
And it's these truths I hold to be evident in light of the current circumstances,
Love is a sham,
I've said it before and I'll say it again
Love is the most destructive force known to man.
And it was all at once I knew that she never loved me.
It wasn't because of spite and it wasn't because she never tried,
It just was
She thought she did,
But love is elusive and it's easy to love someone in parts,
And in parts she loved me well,
Until I fell to pieces
And then it came,
The I can't do this, the I's in her eyes
And I knew she didn't know,
I wanted to be angry,
Because I loved her with all of me
But she only loved me with pieces.
And maybe one day she'll know
I truly hope so,
But for now I'll remember the pieces.
The smiles,
The quiet whispers,
The love,
The truth,
The lies,
The laughs,
The walks in the snow and in the rain,
The pain,
Because it's these pieces that formed the life we had,
And even though it wasn't what we hoped,
It was fun while it lasted.
And so here lie the pieces,
Of what we had,
Of who I used to be,
Because there he lies in pieces,
And there isn't enough crazy glue in the world to glue him back together.
So I'm starting from the ground up,
And with god as my witness and with the odds against me I'll fight with tooth and nail for every inch of ground to stand on,
And maybe we'll reconnect in our thirties,
Maybe we won't
Life is funny that way.
But either way I just need to say,
Thanks for the pieces,
I've learned so much,
And it'll be hard without you,
But I'm going to be okay.
I always am, I always will be.
It's who I am.
I hope you find peace, and love, and prosperity.
And I hope you find your pieces.