I should have held you tight when I could. I should have thanked you for everything you did for me, for everything you wanted for me and everything you helped me to reach. I should have called you more to ask you questions of my school work. I should have kept those books. I should have counted the amount of birthday cakes you bought me and give you a kiss for each. I should have been every friday evening at you place and help you with your puzzles. I should have told them not to let you drive. I should have told my grandma she was so lucky to find you instead of wonder what she physically saw in you. I should have asked you about the time the guerrilla almost killed you and see you laugh when you told the story for the fifth time. I should have learnt how to be okay without your presence... But i didn't.

And now it's too late.