When anyone asks me what I fear I normally say clowns or blood tests
Both of which are true but they are neither one of them is my biggest fear
What I fear the most in the world is being left along
The reason for this is because when no one is there I feel that I am not here
I don’t want to disappear or not be remembered
When I don’t make a sound, I feel this emptiness
Every time I stay don’t make a noise I feel more and more people looking through me
Instead of at me
People say I am imagining it and I would like to think that is true
But it is hard
I am the one in the group that it wouldn’t matter if I was not there
When I say something, it is looked over without a thought
I am scared that it will always be like this
But then I wonder if it would matter if I disappeared
No one notices me anyway so what difference would it make
I am invisible whether I say something or not
When I do not text they don’t text me
They don’t care about my presence
Maybe it is just better to stay silent
I can be forgotten and not bother others