You walk by, and I have to close my eyes.
I'm not sure what it is I feel, I don't even know if this is real.
You're always there for me; but with lots of room to breathe.
Time after time, you wander through my mind.
Images of your smile and eyes, always wake me by surprise.
My heart begins to beat so fast, I've had this feeling in the past.
Once upon a time...He had been mine.
What if this would end the same? Could I dar bear that pain?
Then there's the question, of "Have I learned my lesson?"
Do I dare fall for you, friend? Should I even go there again?
I could not bear to lose you, It is rare to find a friend so true.
I wonder if you can tell, when you're around I'm in hell.
I see you sitting there, I try hard not to stare...
My throat closes - I cannot speak. Just the thought of you, makes me weak.
We used to laugh and play, now I do not know what to say.
I once told you everything, now this secret causes me pain.
What do I do? I can't tell you...I'd die if you knew.
For sure, I don't know, your rejection would be an unbearable blow.
So I live on with my secret, a silent aching regret.
My pillow--stained with tears, of love for my friend of three years.
In order to act normal, I fill journal after journal.
One day you might know why I act so weird; one reason I will never tell, the main one, is fear.
So you will know why I'm awkward and shy, and why I always seem to sigh....