We were in your car, I was wearing yellow see-through underwear and you still had all your clothes on. The idea of taking all mine off made you nervous. I could tell by the amount of times you snapped my skin while your embarrassed fingers tried to take off my bra.
I could hear the cicadas outside when your heavy breathing was masked by my own mouth covering yours. My hair, that had once been in a well-brushed bun, stuck to my temples, forehead and back of the neck, where I got chills thinking about what we were doing.
I took off your plain white t-shirt and you hit your head on the roof of your forest green Saturn.
Now I just keep thinking about your loud fan creaking through your ceiling. How in the dark, we pull at each otherβs bodies under a heavy comforter, with no sheet.
There are too many pillows on your bed. A detail I once found endearing, convinced you held onto them when you missed me. But even with my back turned to you, front facing the wall, you held on to those stupid pillows while I kicked the extras onto the floor.