WHY IS IT THAT ALL OF MY LYRICS ARE DULL? WHY IS IT THAT MY EYES ARE MELTING OUT OF MY SKULL? WHY IS IT THAT I AM A CLICHÉ?
WHY IS IT THAT I AM COMPLETELY INSIGNIFICANT IN THE VAST MEANINGLESSNESS OF SPACE? WHY IS IT THAT WE PERCEIVE THINGS AS HAVING A ‘PURPOSE’, OR THAT ANYTHING TRULY MATTERS?
WHY IS IT THAT I CANNOT WRITE SONGS WITH DANCE BEATS AND CATCHY REPETITIVE HOOKS?
WHY IS IT THAT I STILL CARE ABOUT THINGS? EVEN THOUGH I KNOW NOTHING MATTERS? WHY DO I CARE ABOUT MY FATHER? I DONT. WHY DO I CARE ABOUT NOT CARING?
WHY DO I WANT TO BE SUCCESSFUL? WHEN I KNOW I WILL DIE, AND LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND? WHY WAS I NOT BORN IGNORANT, HAPPY RELIGIOUS?
TO THROW ALL YOUR LOVE AND THOUGHT AND EMOTION AT A CONCEPT THAT DOES NOT EXIST.
I WISH I COULD DO THAT. I AM A PRETENTIOUS ****** BAG. I WAS CURSED WITH THE MORBID REALITY CHECK THAT WE WILL ALL DIE