i've always written best when my emotions run high
when tears spring from my eyes
when my cheeks flush
when my fingers tingle
when my stomach drops
when my heart skips a beat
when my muscles lock up and my breathing stalls and my head feels too light and the room starts to spin

and when i'm done writing
and i drop my pencil on the ground
and the ringing in my ears is gone,
then i have to go back
and reread
because i have no idea what has been written.
i have no idea what words my brain has spat out

That is when I am most proud of what I have done.