I can’t always be the one who smiles
I said I would always be there
But I’ve had my own issues too
I am in pain and you can’t see
You’re not the only one who needs help
You’re not the only one suffering for mistakes
That you never chose
I can’t give you the help you need
I’m still looking for something to heal me
I’m not a miracle worker who can see the future
You hold it in the palm of your hand
I can only smile so much
Before the pain becomes unbearable
Don’t ask for me to care
Cause I really don’t
Care about me first
Then maybe it’ll be ok
For me to feel some emotion towards you
But you’re only a selfish *******
That only feels for yourself
My life isn’t perfect so why come to me
The log in my eye is overpowering
I can’t always be the happy person you always see
My tears fall and **** my innocence
But ignore feelings that I might have
Because they really don’t matter
I don’t know if they even matter to me
But they are there
And there isn’t anything I can do
But pretend nothing matters
That’s what you want me to do
You act as if it wouldn’t affect me
But how am I supposed to take that news
How do you want me to react
Because it’s all about you
Should I smile like always
And cover up my spilt tears
It is what is always expected
That girl who is always happy
Am I supposed to be an unfeeling *****
I’m sorry but it’s too much
And I just don’t care enough