I'm so tired of being a disappointment.
I let all that you've told me go.
You only wanted the best.
Did you really think I could be the best?
Everthing I thought mattered
Lays in waste around the shattered mirror.
But the last time I looked I saw a monster.
Could you not love it?
I saw a monster in you, too.
We weren't so different.
I miss the moments of laughter.
Even if they were an illusion.
It is better not to know what you don't have.
The jealousy is enough to tear and rip.
The mask that hid me wore me out.
I could no longer breath with it.
So I took it off and now I'm afraid.
I can't hide anymore.
And I didn't think anyone but you
Would ever care.
But you made me hide.
And even though I'm afraid now
And no matter how alone I am
I can not return.
I know now what is on the other side.
I have been given a taste.
It is bitter and fruitless
But sometimes it is more.
A possibility of love and joy.
So I will risk the strangling of my heart
And the harshness
For just another taste of something better.
For a chance of a fairy tale love.
Rather than to hide myself with you
And waste away in your bitterness.