i'm drowning in my own thoughts
wishing i could tell you how i really feel
but i can't so instead i pretend to not care
i can't let you see that part of me
the part where i long for you
the part where i wish you knew how i truly felt
the part of me that aches
because you'll never feel the same way
about me as i do about you
it *****
knowing that i can't tell
you all the words i've been
dying to say you
so instead i push you away
i pretended we never were friends
i pretended that you never existed
i pretended you meant nothing to me
so that i could get my thoughts
to stop killing me