I'm crazy
he's amazing
yet I don't love him
I can't

he looks at me with pure love
yet I'm blind to him

he says the sweetest things
yet I hear nothing

he holds me when I need to be held
yet I feel nothing

Why?
Why can I fall so easily for the other?

the one who can't look me in the eye
I looked past it

the one who only spoke to me in secret
I hear every word

the one who leaves me in the cold
I feel every second

am I insane
messed up mentally
somehow I love what I should hate
and run from what I should love

why can't I love the boy who loves me?
why can I love the boy who is filled with nothing but hatred?