so what if i clean the house
to ease my anxiety
and if i thank jesus even though i dont think hes there
and if i bite my vegan ice cream in two tries
and if i am light on my toes
and if my memories are shaky
and if i dont think my senses are real
so what if i look in the mirror and forget who she is
whats it matter if my nails are always chipped
if i think in colors
cry in shapes
i dont feel like someone who has to explain a thing
i am both lanky and fat
and i am decorated in torquoise
i am not sure if i am an artist or a researcher or politician
i dont bury toes for too long
i always find a shell