I have tried for so long, to be a little strong. Oh yes a little bit stronger. I feel as if I just simply do not belong, and when I am alone at home I listen to a song. It all gets better, but soon after I get silent my mind gets violent. That's when I realize that I cannot fear death any longer... Because the fear of living is far more worse. I fear living cause I'm living in pain and Suicide seems like the only option, well at least the best decision that I could ever make, but that is the path I'm trying not to take....