I thought I’d teach them some looking.  the well’s bucket I was careful to quietly lower.  I meant to halve the rope with my tied legs and arms, to bewilder it with hugging.  I saw myself do it twice before I gave three.  the dark above me seemed jealous of the dark below; my long hair took on a glitter of crickets but would not be led away.  I waited for my name to sound its foreign bid but instead heard only the silently local.  I could see the bucket if I closed my eyes; and it, me, in my puny dress.  when my feet began their sleep they were napped in by circus water.  how cheered I would be for slipping.

yet it was another took audience- I made the junkyard breathless; my fingers already forgetting to stay their swollen proofs.  I called her name with the others, she whose own fingers had cleared the closing of a refrigerator’s door and so would not be found in a lesser hiding place alive and ******* a knuckle.  I strayed to my brother’s punishment for inappropriate play-  a scene with his therapist saying one can’t die from nothing.  there has to be something.  my brother having his hands pinned to his knees for covering his ears.  his therapist wishing he were someone else and someone else him.