there is both not enough time
and far too much
to suit my tastes

I want to do a million things
read every book
and experience the bounty of the world

I want to do nothing
stare at trivialities
and while the day away

I want to live a thousand years
be awed by the greatness we achieve
or by the machinations of our destruction

I want today to be my last day
to find the peace I never could in waking
yet I persist