Addicting it is
When the thoughts come in
Arriving each with a new, different hope
How appealing it is
To forget the void of emotion that became reality
And forget to remind my head not to get so carried away
For, it gets easier with every false hope
Not to jump so quickly after an untouchable illusion
Only to watch my hands drift through the air before me
Only to fall, and fall
Until fall I can no longer—
Until rock bottom is all that remains
I just want someone whom I can feel physically as well as emotionally
I want to truly live and breathe
Instead of polluting everything I see
With this cloud of darkness resting in me
I just want someone I can talk to
Tell stories with
Someone who I can fall for instead of just fall
I want…
But something inside is always there
Telling me I'll never be good enough,
Showing me the love in the world around me,
Mocking me,
Reminding me that nothing except the path I tread was made for me
Reminding me that I was made to be lonely.