i am weak - weaker still than i want to admit - and terrified to show it
i am too jealous, and almost always awkward
i talk entirely too much
i am basically always afraid
and i shy away from painful truths like a horse from a snake
i am deeply, deeply flawed

the irony is
i tell you your flaws are why i like you
that they are what make you, you
and that is one hundred percent true
and yet here i sit
unable to forgive myself a single flaw
harping on myself for the smallest social faux pas
for not being completely open and honest with someone
for comparing myself to someone i aspire to be
falling short
and hating myself for it

god.

why am i
such a hypocrite?