There are many times I sit and wonder,
does he still love me, or is it somehow blundered.

It hurts me deep when he's mad and withdraws,
his affection towards me with held, a punishment, one of his flaws.

When you love someone who is hurting so,
You are very confused watching this show.

As you wince in pain and limp your way by,
Thinking does he even care, he's not blinking an eye.

Would you like help? Can I get that for you?
Those days are long gone; out with the old shoes.

The care and compassion is not there,
Your speechless and can only blankly stare.

Racing your mind to figure out,
what this mess is truely about.

For I'm sure if he loved me inside and out,
He'd want to know what this was all about.

I moan in pain with no one to care,
No one to comfort me saying I'll be there.

No hugs of security when I feel the need,
I ask and annoyed he half *** appeased.

Please tell me what I have done,
If it's not me, know this isn't fun.

I know he is not affectionate a lot,
The reason behind that adversity , I got.

I love you with every bit of my heart,
Please don't hurt me this way, it's been 25 years since the start.

I want to be close, but with rejection so near,
I am so afraid you have given us up through the year.

I am going through so much with my body and  my head,
I need you way more now other than just in bed.

Please tell me it's not over, that this isn't the end,
I love you too much and your my best friend.

How can I help to make your life better,
What can I change, will it even matter?

I feel as though you gave up and threw in the rope,
To tired to continue, unsure of how to cope.

It's easier to withdraw then to face all the strains,
But the traffic isn't moving he's stuck in this lane.

Will he go with the flow full force ahead,
Or exit the next ramp, cause inside he's dead.

Have we pushed him to his point of no return,
Is he expended, depleted wilting like a forgotten Fern?

Without steady water it will surely die,
I can't live without you, this is no lie.

You were my rock, worn down to rubble,
I'm so sorry I was so much trouble.

I will try my best to improve all I can,
I need you by my side.  Your my Man.

I loved you then and I love you now,
Im sure we can work through this somehow.