So I'm just sitting here... once again... wondering where you have been. For in this beautiful deep blue sea of your eyes I remain lost. Lost to what I wanted us to be ... lost from what I use to see.
52 years of shame  and regret. Sitting here in the storm even though my eyes were already wet... i just sit here. Lost in the space of what I thought you wanted and what I need... allowing myself to believe you were mine, oh my endless greed. But still I sit here, shouting your unknown name.... Hoping that when I finally find you that you'd feel the  same... I sit here, unbeknown of what I truly feel... that maybe I'm truly clueless for what is real. I sit here ... wondering if maybe that which my heart desired  most, was my biggest fear ...