your eyes repulse me,
so much they warp my soul
and i become ashamed,

i’m not afraid of you
i never was,
even when you pushed your knife into my organs,
like you pushed yourself
into me,
with force and pleasure and greed,

i was never afraid of you,
but you piled the shame on me
made me think it was my fault

but you loved me didn’t you?
and i didn’t feel the same but

your love

cost me my skin, my safety
and my life,

when i speak about it, i crumble,
because of the embarrassment that i
had anything to do with you,
that i even knew you
is enough to
corrupt me,

you are not a man, you are a shadow, you are a creep,
you are not relevant to the world,
but you wanted to be relevant to me

so stick ******* down my throat and call me a liar,
but baby you know this is the truth,
you will never break me.