I snuck a cigarette in the back yard at 10:45 in the morning. The sun shone bright and shaded the smoke gawdily, so I smoked it in the shade, behind the fence, keeping an eye on the sidewalk to make sure the coast was always clear. The dog was on his leash and he stared at me guiltily. "Why do you give me that look?" I said, I petted him affectionately, that seemed to suffice. I made coffee in my bedroom, filling the electric kettle with water from a mason jar. I wrote two postcards to friends in China while it brewed, I drank my liquid breakfast, and stepped in cat *****. "What the hell is wrong with you?" I screamed at her as she lay docile on my duvet. She gave me the blankest, the most Idontgiveashit cat look ever. 11:15.