Why do I fuck it up?
Why don't I just not be here?
Constantly bashing myself,
Trying to grow.
Be a better person.
It isn't easy,
It's a nightmare to say the least.
I hurt those I love around me,
Because I can't trust.
Trust no one.
When I think I'm better,
That sickening feeling attacks.
Claws across my heart.
My brain seizes to think.
I panic,
I freak out.
Why?
WHYY?!?!
Why do I do this to myself?
I fuck it up,
Because I'm so fucked up myself!
WHY?